The Highs and the Lows

All life comes in circulating patterns.

I mainly use this blog as therapy to relieve pent up emotions and to help me positively work through issues.

Positively, because I get to practice my vocabulary and writing skills while at the same time venting about things that I might otherwise brood over and get emotionally sick from.

Somehow, just putting it out there, even if no one reads it, makes me feel better.

I try to write the good things as well as the bad. But I don't need the blog as much during the good times. I guess that's a good thing.

Things that have been happening lately.

1.) I've discovered the perfect formula for remembering dreams. Due to my work I wake up at 3:30, deliver papers, and I'm back in bed by 6 or 7. I don't remember dreams before this time, but during the second sleep cycle I don't think I go quite as deep as the first time. If I think over my dream and then write it down within the first ten minutes of waking up, I remember it with more clarity then if I tried to do this later. Basically, to remember your dreams, wake up all the way and then immediately go back to sleep again.

I'm using this as a method to get over my writers block. I swear, if I daydream about another grandfather leader having to save a granddaughter from a terrible evil scenario again I'll die. The scenario itself is entertaining. But unfortunately the premise belongs to someone else and I could only claim a fan-fiction piece at best.

2.) I'm now attending Jujitsu six days a week. It's a great way to get back into the art, especially since I don't have that much time to re-learn everything. I'll have to repeat the process next year, but that's the sacrifice of not attending a local college. It's a little annoying sometimes. The guys who've taken over the class are new to the area, they're my sensei's old students, but their methods are different. Where sensei taught that "as long as you get the job done I don't care" these guys are more precise. It can get under the skin a little, especially since I am a black belt. But it's good for me too. Still, sometimes I feel like a second class black belt and I can't help but justify it with my lack of practice. At least A, is fun to work with. I think I learn better from Mr. B. and Mr. E. better anyway. They've always been around and they're like my funny uncles so I guess it's understandable than trying to learn from the new guys Mr. C. and J.

3.) Remember the cycles thing? I'm going through quick cycles of eating complete crap and eating well. Hopefully this last experiment has put an end to that. Seriously, if you haven't had tortilla chips and cheese dip in a while, don't try to down half a bag in an afternoon. Your tummy will not thank you. If you happen to be an idiot and try it anyway. I suggest eating an apple. This service message has been brought to you by my loving dietetic sister who happened to give me a call at the right time.

4.) I finally got the green light to teach a wellness seminar to the RS girls. I think it'll be fun. It's a bit of a challenge, cause above sister often says things that make me feel inadequate to the task even though I've been teaching people how to move since I was sixteen. I want her help, but I don't want her doubting cloud. I think I'll rise to the task and surprise her with how well it goes.

5.) I've found out that yard work is almost as therapeutic as blogging.

6.) Just because it's raining I don't have to be depressed. As I've said, there's a part of me that hates the idea that my personal feelings have anything to do with star charts, ancestral spirits or the weather. It could be because I'm a recovering addict and I know what it's like to feel like you have no will power. But honestly, I think people themselves are more powerful than they ever give themselves credit for.

7.) New/Old Theory: Our opinions of others are almost entirely based upon how we think they view ourselves. Testing this theory through social interactions I have found it to be correct. If I go to meet a stranger with the firm belief that I'm a likable person, I will find them to be charming and wonderful people themselves. It's really fun actually.

I think that's everything. I know when school picks up its going to be harder to find blog time than now. Or should I said it's going to be harder to even think of blog time? Maybe that will be one of my many note card post reminders that I put on my wall every semester?